The Coldest Night of Winter
The Coldest Night of Winter
I feel it coming, coming on strong
Getting mixed signals, something's gone wrong
Out of tune, out of time
The last transmission of a brilliant mind
Everything's true, believe what you're told
Close your eyes as life unfolds
So many stories, so deceiving
The pain goes away when I stop breathing
I dream of nothing
Has everyone turned on me
Or have I turned on myself?
You can't win when you're already lost
The coldest night of winter is here
Is there someone who can lend me an ear?
No fireflies lighting the sky
Just the cold dark stare of a dead man's eye
The sound of noise is all I hear
Static is life or so it appears
Why must the candle burning twice as strong
Burn half as long?
The ringing in my ears
The time gone by, the faded years
Ride the light to a distant day
Where grass and trees are shades of gray
Drowning in the Mainstream
Static, distortion, brown, pink and white noise
Cleverly marketed for girls and boys
Turn on the tube, what do you see?
The next boy or girl band on MTV
Which American Idol would you choose?
They're all so good I wish none would lose
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There's not enough time for everything
There's not enough time for everyone
There is no place we can go
There is no place we can hide
Static, distortion, brown, pink, and white noise
Cleverly marketed for girls and boys
Turn on the tube, what do you see?
The next Nu-Metal band on MTV
Don't make me choose between Limp Bizkit and Creed
They're equally good, don't you agree?
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There is no one to hear our voice
There is no other alternative choice
There's no safe haven to live my life
There is no where to live my lie
Angry Morning
It feels like I'm always running on empty
Speeding off a cliff in the backseat of my own car
Floating in mid-air, like some sort of dream
The end of the road seemed so clear
The end of the road
The night swallows you whole
At the bottom of the hill
There's a toll booth in the trees
If you kneel on the ground
You scrape the skin off your knees
Sitting in the breakdown lane of my life
The sad night turns into angry morning
The world around me moves at 80 miles per hour
The rain is proof that life does not stand still
Burn Your Own Demon
There's grass in my boots
I'm getting tired again
I feel the winter coming on
I'm getting tired again
Just like the time before
Same place, different name
And the shame of another year
And that the next may be the same
A dust cloud eclipse of the sun
The blisters peel again and again
And just when I start to feel alive
I see Orien's belt up in the sky
Up in the sky
Dead eyes, black disguise
How much did you do?
Did you burn your own demon too?
Up in the sky
What a fire to see
Perfectly flawed
The water pours over me
The feeling has changed
Since the time before
My face pressed against the glass
My foot shut in the door
It feels like I black out
As the day passes me by
The same old familiar scene
It's harder to live than it is to die
All the Way Through
Lift me away
I can't lift myself
Lead me away
And I will follow
Blindly follow
Lift me away
Not letting go
Can't do it alone
One more time
Falling through
Broken bones
Held together with glue
Inside this box
The man you knew
Black and blue
Bruised all the way through
Alone at home
Something's very wrong
How could no one know
For so very long
Broken glass
On the dirty floor
The light went out
The day before
I can't feel anything
Except the burning in my eyes
All these years haunting me
Lifting me to the sky
I can't feel anything
Except the burning in my eyes
Slowly taking over
It's run its course all the way through
The Point of No Return (Other Side of the Moon mix)
Please take me home
I'm freezing
The point of no return
A True Exit
To the left and to the right
A mile of concrete sorrow
The cold steel closes me in
A life without tomorrow
Awakening to silence
Unlike any day before
A beam of light guides me
To freedom through an open door
I have nothing to lose
I am an empty shell full of burning desire
I am the biggest liar
I have nothing to lose
The naked trees were stripped by cold
The dream is sold
I cannot wake the others
Their dreams a morning away
I cannot wait forever
It's as if they want to stay
A neon light burns my eyes
Exit flashes as I blink
A few inches from freedom
I push on the door and my heart sinks
A true exit
I stand and wonder
Another heartbeat gone
On the floor I wait for day and feel peace like never before
I have nothing to lose
At least I'll see the sunrise from a different point of view
Overman
My vision is clear through the glass ceiling
All I see is mediocrity
You won't find the answers begging for healing
All you'll get is inequality
This is the time, the hour of need
This is our path, we must proceed
You think you have the master mentality
But I see you slipping away from reality
The bigger they are, the harder they fall
Rebellion is now if ever at all
This is our path, we must proceed
The overman shall rise and take control
How does it feel to be replaced by a machine?
The Sound and the Fury
Renewed
What is the American Dream?
Work hard, and live free?
Don't be replaced by a machine
They steal your heart as they tear you apart
Hope is what keeps us alive
The very bread upon which we thrive
This is the time, the hour of need
This is our path, we must proceed
Today never comes if you wait
There is no fate but what you make
Hold sacred all the things you need
This is your path, you must proceed
A piece, a fraction, a part of the whole
The universe exists when you play your role
Unite with me, enter the night
The future begins as the past ignites
Never look back, the past is dead
Ashes blow away as you look ahead
Today is here, don't hesitate
Live your life before it's too late
If I keep waiting for tomorrow
Today will never come
I can see my life is a story
And that today is finally here
Out with the old, into the new
Out of the ashes rises something new
Out with the old, into the new
Like the phoenix we arise renewed
Deathbed
You are a slave who's chosen not to exist
A friend of my father with a slit wrist
Dying, faceless, you don't have a name
You bury your son between guilt and shame
Left in a dark and stormy place
Burnt inside
Wipe the ashes from your face
Burnt with pride
Don't leave the ones you love behind
Stay with me
If you can see don't pretend you're blind
See with me
You cannot hold me down
Unrestrained, feet on the ground
We will not live on our knees
On our feet
We will never aim to please
Taste deceit
Stop and think of what you've done
Look around
Through your shroud you'll see there's no one
To be found
Will it be on your deathbed?
You gave me a name
I dissolve all shame
If I find the time I'll point the blame
Burning
The flick of the switch and the heat of the flame
The burning inside that I can't explain
Below the surface the fire burns deep
Here is where I hide the secret I keep
I look down inside and see the monster I've made
I look down inside and become very afraid
I don't know who I am anymore
I'm lost in a world I've never been in before
I kneel on the ground, the heat starts to rise
I look up and see the darkening skies
The world gets darker every day
You are my exit but I see no way
I try to hold on but the heat consumes
In the darkest hour your presence still looms
The fire is now the only thing true
All I can do is keep burning for you
I have miles to go before I sleep
One Last Run
In a dream you came to me
A vision so real like a fantasy
A cruel joke played by my own mind
Of this there is no worse kind
One last run, one foot in the door
Into the sun, you took one step more
A river between, flooding my mind
Washing the pain that's left behind
These still waters, they run deep
Pooling the memories that I must keep
You must have strayed too far away
Too far away
I see you at night
In the darkest skies
Or is in another
In a black disguise
The light of day makes it hard to see
This dream is blurred by reality
One last run, one foot in the door
Into the sun, you took one step more
A Murder of Crows
They said it was revenge
But nobody knows
They said he had it coming
But nobody knows
They said his life was death
But nobody knows
Maybe it was a murder of crows
Nobody knows
You thought it could never happen to you
Your whole life
You're stalked by your own mortality
They said it was for love
But nobody knows
They said he couldn't rest
But nobody knows
They said his life was pain
But nobody knows
Maybe it was a murder of crows
Finally set free
Now you can die with dignity
For Real
"Rinse & Repeat"
Every day it is the same
I take the blame, I have no shame
The more I try the more I fail
With my trust comes betrayal
Head held high
Though I've never been lower
I shouldn't try
Though I want to be closer
Drowning in grief
I'll wear my stone disguise
Pain is relief
In my world of lies
Each day passes like the last
Mine's a future in the past
I'll fall prey to your hands
I'll never meet your demands
The past is dead
All that's left is ashes
And they're blowing in my face
"Fragments"
I wish to know how you sleep at night
Dreaming while wounded soldiers fight
I know when I sleep you will be there
It fills my heart with a dry, stale air
Are the dreams that shatter
dreams that matter?
Fragmented vision, fragmented mind
Each night enters a slow painful bliss
I cannot see a future in this
You cut and paste my mind to pieces
This recurring dream never ceases
These fragments will fall apart forever
These fragments will never piece together
These fragments will never be together
"Dead In NRG"
Today I looked in the mirror
But I did not see a reflection
Because I've already died
Poisoned by your infection
Dead in NRG
I am Dead in NRG
Today I took a walk in the past
I grab the bars that hold me in
Nothing will ever touch your pain
Only revived through my sin
Why does no one love loneliness
Or feel the rage that I do
I'm always in the fight alone
Even when I'm right next to you
I'm knocking on plastic wood
"Unrestrained"
Whatever is, is right
They're trying to take control of my mind
They won't let me hold my own belief
Unless they can have it re-defined
Hooked up to this machine
Life support to help me breathe
Going through life in a dead end dream
Waking up, wanting to scream
You cannot hold me down
Unrestrained, feet on the ground
"If Only You Knew"
I see you hiding in your shadow
Fearing the light that makes you blind
I see you running from your fears
Keeping an eye on the shadow behind
I see you believing others' lies
Floating in a falsified dream
I see you pretending to be alive
Keeping quiet when you want to scream
If only you knew
How shitty I feel
Memories are meant to fade
They're designed that way for a reason
"Pure Bliss"
Draining the dreams that keep me alive
The parasite bleeds his sugar lies
This one breathes in the poisonous air
And wonders why the stars collide
Into another sequence again
I lay and realize that I am dead
I cut my throat and drink to my health
And scream at the voices in my head
I'm living each day in this hell
It's my vision of total bliss
I'm alone in this torture cell
It's not going to end like this
Draining the dreams that keep me alive
The parasite bleeds his sugar lies
This one breathes in the poisonous air
And wonders why the stars collide
Between the cold and deadly air
My one existence is split in two
I never thought it could be this way
This drop of pain is because of you
Inside this pain I found pure bliss
It's not going to end like this
"The Point of No Return"
Please take me home
I'm freezing
The point of no return
"Enslaved"
I'm enslaved
A captive of pain
I don't live
The life I claim
Outside world
I can see
Never ending
It's harmony
Behind the disguise
Of my shadowy eyes
You'll see me fail
As a part of me dies
Believe in those
Who you betray
Whatever you need
Turn away
The vicious loop
Of eternity
Is chaining me down
And won't let me free
I'm enslaved
My hands are free
Living in the land
Of make-believe
Outside world
I can see
Never ending
It's harmony
All lyrics © AzubahF Records 2000